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| I guess I don't REALLY mind.
Smile, but on the inside, it's different.
I'm... turning 18 in 2 days.
I'm... taking my exams the week after.
I'm... graduating to year2.
Saying goodbye to a complete 1k02; saying hi to TAS.
I'm not really looking forward to going to Sentosa though.
All that travelling and a whole new environment, with new people.
We'll all still see one another but, it's going to be different.
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| I met her, and found out what a jerk you really are.
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Hair-standing and cheesy;
in the midst, a little jealousy sprouts and hurts.
you may be stupid sometimes but you really know how to treat a girl right.
if only half the boys in the world can be like you, dear friend.
i've been living with my own little sadistic definition of love because, no one could prove me wrong.
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things are changing. 2009 was great, and I believe 2010 will be amazing.
as I said before, I'd told someone about my past, after all this hiding.
today, he poked, no, scratched at one of my weaknesses, and made me cry.
i cried not because i was hurt; i cried because someone understood what i was going through.
he has a knack of reading people, which is scary. i slowly realised it was okay, especially when he helped me open up certain doors i've locked up for a long time.
it is also because he didn't reprimand me; instead, he told me the good of it. for once, i feel appreciated, after all i'd been through alone.
i'll still have the bad habit and i will be like this for a long time, not for my own benefits, but in mind of others as well.
while i may call him psycho, while we may make fun of each other, deep down, i thank God for sending a friend like him.
God, merci beaucoup.
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| i'm supposed to be doing my projects now haha but just wanna blog about this.
received a text from Japh in the morning. it made my heart squeeze.
will not disclose the details but i was her friend of the week.
it was then my mind, which is always filled about projects and classes, cleared to remember last time.
i suddenly really miss my girls terribly. the 'canteen gang' as i like to call. haha.
people tend to tell me 'friends come, friends go', but i want to see us, 10 years later, even if not as close because of our own affairs, but still getting together to talk, to see one another grow up.
how ever since we turned 17 that we started to live separate lives. we carried on. we only have time for our poly friends.
i hardly see crystal, joey or yeesin. and especially sammy jayne!! we're in the same school yet so far, dear.  the only time we ever talk is like, about projects. urgh.
not that i don't like my class or friends right now. i love them all, especially my clique. people change you and they did, in a good way.
too soon to talk about it, but i have to bade au revoir to this bunch of lovable people as well. when the new term begins, it's 2.1, and an entirely new class, and everything starts all over again.
changes are coming faster now. too busy to have a life.
like right now. ending abruptly, but i feel i should get back to my project.
salut, ma amis!
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| bonne annee!
how in a flash, 2009 has gone and 2010 has arrived.
2009 has really been a huge eye-opener and carried a massive change over everyone.
i've learnt to treasure studying.
secondary school had been hell when it comes to studies. no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't do it, so i didn't care. now, i regret the money spent to travel to school, the time wasted on projects, travel and frustration. ultimately, i don't regret going to temasek poly.
it's TP that made me feel, i can do it. i'm new to LRM but i feel this is it. i've finally found what i really want to do, what i am capable of doing. it made me care more about my studies. i'm motivated to enjoy my studies and excel. i don't see the light of failing anymore. i cry when my lowest grades are B's. that's how hard i'm striving.
i've made a lot of new friends.
and through these new friends, i've met various personalities, many whom i thank God for, and others whom are the last i hope to meet, but still thank God for teaching me. i've said goodbye to quite a handful, but i must know in life, it's impossible to keep everything you've come across. still, when a door closes, 2 others open in place!
i've gained a lot of experience
in the past, i'll never want to take initiative. job, FOW, welfare committee, French, Spooktacular, YOG, others i can't remember off my mind right now. anticipating upcoming CYA and Orlando Universal Studios, and many, many more for my portfolio, as well as personal experience.
and definitely many little big things i can't remember, or i wish to keep personal, nevertheless contributing to what i aspire and how i changed myself.
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spent new year's eve doing POM project. lol!
then out with choonlin and edmond. merely 2 friends, but 2 good friends to cross over with to the new year. 
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